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Registering the second time around isn’t that exciting.
Let’s get something clear – I’m not pregnant, at least not yet. This is the first official cycle of trying and I’m currently on CD 6. I won’t ovulate for another week or so. I do feel surprisingly confident this time around. I don’t know if it’s the meditation or false hope. I would like to believe I truly think I’ll be pregnant again soon and that’s helping with the nerves.
For those new to this blog, let’s hit you with some terminology I’m going to use within the next several months:
PgAL: Pregnant After a Loss.
PgALL: Pregnant after a Late Loss
Rainbow baby: Baby after a loss
Rainbow pregnancy: pregnancy after a loss
IC: Incompetent (or insufficient) cervix
Cerclage: a stitch that keeps the cervix in tact so a woman can carry to term. This is typically common with IC.
So now we got that out of the way…let’s talk registering for the second rainbow kid.
With Bo, it was easy and not for a reason I like to admit. I still had Ethan’s registry on Amazon and I simply used a lot of that to fill up Bo’s. Yeah, kinda sucks. I don’t necessarily like how convenient it was.
Now, it’s a bit different. The expectation for the first baby is so exciting because it’s really new and fresh. Who doesn’t love picking out baby clothes? Who doesn’t love going to showers and seeing all of the cool little gifts? With the next baby, it’s like…hmm…I already have this. And that. And those. And I probably have too many of those.
Not as fun.
I’m also debating if I should even register. Tradition says a mother should only have one baby shower because she’d have everything else for the other children, which is true. But what if your first baby is a different gender from your next one? Does the same rule apply? What if there’s a bit of a time-lapse between babies (3+ years), does the rule still apply?
Decisions, decisions…
If I get pregnant soon, this baby will be a spring 2016 one. That means I will have to get summer-type onesies like this one.
These were the same onesies I originally picked out for Ethan. Yeah, feeling emotional puffs.
So yeah, that’s where I’m at, emotionally-wise about a registry. In other news, I decided I’ll have another cerclage. I know you’re probably thinking, ‘Um, wasn’t that plan anyway since the last one was so successful?‘ Well, I’m stubborn. I vividly remember all of the doctor’s appointments (three of them monthly) and the cerclage recovery (which wasn’t that bad, other than I had to stay inside the house for a week). A part of me wondered if I really wanted to go through all of that again? I have a toddler now and it’s never a dull moment with him. Each appointment I go to, Bear will come with me. Keeping a toddler entertained in a waiting room? Hah. That’s going to be fun.
And then I received some clarity.
I’m part of a IC group on Facebook. While I don’t post as much as I used to, I do remain to lend my support and give advice to other moms in the group. Two moms recently lost their sons; one of them being her third loss.
I remember the devastation of losing Ethan and can still recall it like if it just happened yesterday. There is absolutely nothing worse than to bury your child. Nothing. Nothing can compare and nothing won’t compare. Why in the hell would I even want to risk putting myself through that again?
So, I’m getting another cerclage. I’m also getting another c-section. Meh…I’ll share my feelings on that in another post. I’m not advocating for a VBAC (nor do I want) but major surgery is a little iffy on me. Maybe my feelings will change again soon.
I’m so excited to follow along for the next part of your journey. I still haven’t gotten my cycle back,and we’re not actively trying,but we’re not preventing either. I’ve been having the fever something crazy! I hope everything goes easy for you! High risk + a toddler has me freaking a little bit,but it’s gotta be manageable right?…lol
I hope so! I think the only thing that worries is when I’ll be in the hospital recovering from the c-section because I have to be there a minimum of three days, and I haven’t spent a day away from Bear like ever.